A hand on my shoulder for just a few seconds - how can it affect me so much?  It didn't mean anything - although it sent waves of energy right through me - I didn't want it to mean anything (well maybe just a little), but now it's all I can think about.  Even that didn't matter until I found myself close to someone else 48 hours later and had to move away for fear of what I might do.  Whole sections of my being were closed down and are suddenly rudely awakened, leaving my head spinning and my eyes leaking.  Now all I am is a body longing to be touched, attached to a brain that can't deal with it and doesn't know how to gratify the body.